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Monday, February 27, 2012
Letting Yourself Go?!?!
As promised on Facebook earlier....I got this thought in my head today and it kinda sorta pissed me off. I see it everywhere....women that just because they are mothers and have more on their plates then they used to have completely let themselves go. They don't do their make up anymore, they have gained a ton of weight, don't care what they wear, and have basically all around said screw it and then bitch because their men don't give them ass anymore....lets think here....hmmmm...is there an answer to this....something to fix it?!?! Yep, there sure is....GET OFF YOUR ASS AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND STOP BLAMING IT ON BEING A DAMN MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a very laid back person and yes, I did come very close to falling into this trap myself but damn it...step back and look at yourself in the damn mirror!! You deserve better for yourself and your children deserve to walk next to someone who feels good about themselves which helps with their confidence in the future! If you don't know me personally let me just quickly tell you a day in the life of me....
6:30-7:00 *get my butt out of bed
7:00-8:15 *fix breakfast, drinks, change diapers, get mandy ready for school and off to the bus stop
8:15-10:00 *lazy time....movies, cuddle time, and sit back trying to fully wake up with my coffee while my children tear apart my living room while I pretty much sit back and watch.
10:00-10:30 *get kids changed and ready for the day
10:30-11:30 *go to my 92 year old papaw's house to let the dog out and take him anywhere he may need to go and see if he needs anything at all
11:30-1:30 *boys nap time (thank god!!!) so I have some quality time with Sky and try to clean up whatever mess they have made to make my house at least look decent
1:30-4:30 *take care of the kids and try to keep them from wrecking what I have cleaned up already, take a shower, do my make up, do my long ass hair, get dressed in decent clothes, help mandy with her homework, get dinner together, and then leave for work.
4:30-10:15 *at work making some $$$
10:15-till i pass out *try to have some relax time without kids up my butt!!!!
yes, my days are absolute hell! Plus when you add on top of this that I am an ex pain pill addict and am now stopping the medication that kept me from having withdrawals and am in full blown hell and pain, most women would say screw it! but at the same time....about 8 months ago i looked at myself in the mirror and actually started to cry! i wasn't wearing makeup anymore, i was up to 216 pounds, in a size 20, and just hated who was looking back at me in that mirror. I seriously wanted to blame it on my kids and how i never have time for myself but i basically said fuck that!!!! i cant blame me not taking care of myself on my kids. I take the time to make them look good and they deserve to walk next to a mother that looks damn good too!!! So, in the last 8 months i have dropped 66 pounds, 12 pants sizes, wear makeup every damn day, do my hair, nails, toes, and it actually makes me feel sooooo much better!!!!
I actually dread walking through Walmart because of how many women I see with only 2 or 3 kids and they look so worn out and funky that its actually disgusting! Would you want to be the kid walking next to you? Some women don't even take the time to match their clothes....SERIOUSLY?!?!?
So for all of you women out there that have totally and completely let yourselves go...please think about your kids and realize that it was you that brought them into your life and that it is not their faults that you look the way that you do. Please think about them and how much happier you and they will be to be out and looking good together! Plus, people like me wont be looking at you and then wanting to walk the other damn direction!!!
P.S. I promise that if you take care of yourself and start looking better that your man will not be able to keep his hands off of you which is a stress reliever in itself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Everyone Needs an Outlet!!!
Well, as most of you know my life is absolutely crazy and I rarely find time for me at all! For example it has been over a month since I have had the time to even think about blogging! I have always had one outlet and it is also pretty much the way to my soul! MUSIC!!! I will listen to any kind of music as long as the lyrics actually have meaning! I cannot stand the songs that are completely meaningless and have absolutely no point to them at all!!!
Ever since a young age I would just listen to music constantly just to hear the words. I am very good at finding a song for almost every situation in my life and it is basically a major stress reliever for me. If it weren't for music I seriously don't know who or where I would be in life. All 4 of my children have their own songs as well....Amanda's is "in my daughters eyes" by Martina McBride, Sky's Song is "I'll stand by you", my boys songs are "baby" by Brittney Spears and a few others....
Several people including my fiance and several of my ex's and friends know that the true and honest way to get to me and into my heart is through music. They have found songs that have both broken my heart into a million pieces and also made their way into my heart so deep that they will stay there forever. I even have a binder that is full of the lyrics i have actually written out by hand of the songs that have meant the most to me throughout my life.
For those of you who don't know me personally, there are parts of my life that I don't tell anyone about because in all reality I have had a rough life and am actually grateful for some of it because those horrible things that happened to me have made me the person that I am today! They have made me a mother that is determined to give my children all that I possibly can (I basically spoil the hell out of them which isn't always a good thing), they have made me always want to be able to stand on my own two feet without having to rely on someone else, and they have taught me life lessons that some people will never have to learn. And of course with almost every one of these personal situations I have been able to find a song or songs that have helped me get through them without losing my mind.
I'm sorry if this blog is kind of all over the place but all of my kids woke up from their naps as I was just started and are insisting on being in my lap and trying to type for me....lol....that and I am just naturally scatter brained!! Well, time to get off of this computer and clean up, bathe kids, and get ready for work....yay for me!!! I will probably continue this blog at a different time when kids aren't distracting me every 2 seconds and hitting every key they possibly can!!!!!!
Ever since a young age I would just listen to music constantly just to hear the words. I am very good at finding a song for almost every situation in my life and it is basically a major stress reliever for me. If it weren't for music I seriously don't know who or where I would be in life. All 4 of my children have their own songs as well....Amanda's is "in my daughters eyes" by Martina McBride, Sky's Song is "I'll stand by you", my boys songs are "baby" by Brittney Spears and a few others....
Several people including my fiance and several of my ex's and friends know that the true and honest way to get to me and into my heart is through music. They have found songs that have both broken my heart into a million pieces and also made their way into my heart so deep that they will stay there forever. I even have a binder that is full of the lyrics i have actually written out by hand of the songs that have meant the most to me throughout my life.
For those of you who don't know me personally, there are parts of my life that I don't tell anyone about because in all reality I have had a rough life and am actually grateful for some of it because those horrible things that happened to me have made me the person that I am today! They have made me a mother that is determined to give my children all that I possibly can (I basically spoil the hell out of them which isn't always a good thing), they have made me always want to be able to stand on my own two feet without having to rely on someone else, and they have taught me life lessons that some people will never have to learn. And of course with almost every one of these personal situations I have been able to find a song or songs that have helped me get through them without losing my mind.
I'm sorry if this blog is kind of all over the place but all of my kids woke up from their naps as I was just started and are insisting on being in my lap and trying to type for me....lol....that and I am just naturally scatter brained!! Well, time to get off of this computer and clean up, bathe kids, and get ready for work....yay for me!!! I will probably continue this blog at a different time when kids aren't distracting me every 2 seconds and hitting every key they possibly can!!!!!!
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