Must I lose every brain cell?

Sometimes I wonder what I was thinking when I popped 4 kids out my body!  Sometimes I seriously miss having me time!  I wake up in the morning to hear "mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy...must I continue..im sure you get the point!  This is what i hear all day long!  Its nonstop and sometimes I really want to change my name!  Dont get me wrong...I love and adore my children with every ounce of myself but at the same time there are times that if I dont get 30 minutes to myself I just want to lose it!  As of here lately the only time that i even get a minute to myself is when im at work.  And in my opinion that does not count as me time! Im at work to make money not to have fun.  But i do have to admit that if I didnt have my job I would completely lose my mind!  So, for those of you out there who are stay at home parents...more power to you and I do have to admit that you are 100% stronger then I am!!  I was a stay at home mommy right after Amanda was born for about 6 months and not only did I put on about 30 pounds in that time but I about lost my mind.  I couldnt even imagine how it would be with 4 kids.  But now that I do have 4 kids I have learned that when you are in a house with all of them that not one moment is a me moment!!  And by saying not even one moment that does involve the bathroom!!  There are days that I wish and even pray that I could just go pee without being interupted by a kid coming in and saying "mommy!!!!"  Everyone just tells me to shut and lock the door but the issue with that is our bathroom door doesnt even shut tight let alone lock! All that they have to do is push on the door and bingo bango bongo there's momma!  And trust me that is definitly a time when you want to be left alone! lol!  So, ive come to cherrish the time I have alone when I come home from work!  Yes, there are times when 1 of them is up during that time, for instance Amanda is sitting here next to me awake right now, but that doesnt really bother me too much.  Because I cherrish this time alone so much it has made me have insomnia sometimes.  I really do miss sleep but there are times that I seriously miss my time alone!  If there is any advice that any moms or dads can give me I definitly welcome it!  Finding a baby sitter on the weekend is almost imposible because not many people can handle all 4 of my kids at one time....Well....time for me to get to bed.....or at least try to!!!  I will put the rest of my blogs up about each of my monkey later...

Amanda Jewel!!

Amanda Jewel was my first born and is an amazing child!  Most of the time I really dont know where Id be without her!  She was born on 6/18 and that was beyond the best day of my life!  When I found out I was pregnant with her it was beyond a surprise because I was told by more then one doctor that i would never have any children at all because I have PCOS (polyocystic ovarian syndrom).  I had finally accepted that I would never be a mother even though I was not very happy about it when all of a sudden that test was positive.  I have hurricane Isabele to thank for having her....well the hurricane and a few other things lol!  I concieved Amanda between days 5 and 9 of having no power after the storm hit!  Having her changed my life in may ways but all of the changes were positive!  She has been stubborn since the very beginning because she was almost a week late!  She was due on the 13th of June, and then I was supposed to be induced on the 16th but the doctor forgot to schedule it. I had no idea what to expect when having her but I am eternally greatful for an epideral! Those labor pains were beyond horrible until that huge needle was put into my back!  I was scared shitless about it but to any woman who is about to have a baby....I promise you that it is beyond worth all the fear and little pinch you feel!  She weighed 7lb 0oz and was 21 inches long!  The moment she was born and they laid her on my chest I couldnt help but cry my eyes out because she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life!  The day we got out of the hospital was also the day we moved into our apartment!  Imagine bringing home a baby to a house full of boxes!  We didnt even have a crib yet!  But one thing that I will say is that she was beyond spoiled by everyone around her!!!!  She was my first born and I love her with every single ounce of my heart!!!  She is my precious little angel and I will never let her forget that!!!!

Introduction!

Well, I started a blog on a different site and decided that I didnt like it too much.  I have a friend that has her blog on this site and absolutly love it.  She is actually the one that inspired me to blog in the first place!  Her blog is Holdin' Holden.  If you are a parent I would definitly recomend checking it out!  Thanks girl for giving me a way to vent while getting other peoples opinions at the same time! 

Now as for my life.... I am a 29 year old mother of 4 children that are all 7 and under! 

First there is my little angel Amanda Jewel!  She is 7 years old and her DOB is 6/18/04.  She changed my life more then anything else!  I was in a bad place in my life when I got pregnant with her.  She changed me by getting me out of the hard drugs that I was deep into and making me refocus and straighten out my priorities!  I was told that I would never have children so she was more then a surprise!  This is why her middle name is Jewel...she is my precious little Jewel and always will be!  She is 7 going on 17 of course and is starting to think that she knows more then me....but at the same time I love her with every ounce of my heart!!!

Second is my crazy and insane little princess, Patricia "Sky"!  She is about to be 4 years old on 1/5/12.  Before I found out I was pregnant with her I was told that I needed a hysterectomy.  Needless to say when they called me to see why I missed my appointment to finalize everything I cussed them out stating how I was already pregnant and how that doctor could take his degree and shove it up it ass!  Sky can keep you entertained for hours at a time!  She says and does things that just make a person say OMG...that was the cutest but weirdest thing I have ever seen in my life!!!  She is also way to damn smart for her little age and understands way way way too much!!!!

Next are my 2 handsome little boys!!!  Ian and I decided to actually try to have a baby boy!  I didnt know if we would be lucky enough to get pregnant again, let alone get the little boy that we wanted.  Well, needless to say we got 2 of them and luckily for us they are both boys!!!! They were born on 9/23/09!!  First there was Rodney "Kage", and then out came Charles "Anthony"!!  They are the 2 most precious and lovable little boys ever!  I seriously didnt know how in the hell I was going to take care of 2 babies at one time (sometimes still wonder to this day!) but im making it happen!  Even though they are twins they are completely different!  Kage is quiet, lovable, and definitly a momma's boy but beyond sneaky!!! Tony is loud, crazy, and beyond a momma's boy too!

When you put all 4 of them together you never know what your going to get or what they are going to get into!  I love all 4 of them more then anything on this earth even though they drive me absolutly bat shit crazy sometimes!!  I have no clue where I would be without them and am glad that I never have to find out!!!  I am also greatful to their daddy and my fiance Ian for blessing me with all of them over the last 10 years of us being together!