Must I lose every brain cell?

Sometimes I wonder what I was thinking when I popped 4 kids out my body!  Sometimes I seriously miss having me time!  I wake up in the morning to hear "mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy...must I continue..im sure you get the point!  This is what i hear all day long!  Its nonstop and sometimes I really want to change my name!  Dont get me wrong...I love and adore my children with every ounce of myself but at the same time there are times that if I dont get 30 minutes to myself I just want to lose it!  As of here lately the only time that i even get a minute to myself is when im at work.  And in my opinion that does not count as me time! Im at work to make money not to have fun.  But i do have to admit that if I didnt have my job I would completely lose my mind!  So, for those of you out there who are stay at home parents...more power to you and I do have to admit that you are 100% stronger then I am!!  I was a stay at home mommy right after Amanda was born for about 6 months and not only did I put on about 30 pounds in that time but I about lost my mind.  I couldnt even imagine how it would be with 4 kids.  But now that I do have 4 kids I have learned that when you are in a house with all of them that not one moment is a me moment!!  And by saying not even one moment that does involve the bathroom!!  There are days that I wish and even pray that I could just go pee without being interupted by a kid coming in and saying "mommy!!!!"  Everyone just tells me to shut and lock the door but the issue with that is our bathroom door doesnt even shut tight let alone lock! All that they have to do is push on the door and bingo bango bongo there's momma!  And trust me that is definitly a time when you want to be left alone! lol!  So, ive come to cherrish the time I have alone when I come home from work!  Yes, there are times when 1 of them is up during that time, for instance Amanda is sitting here next to me awake right now, but that doesnt really bother me too much.  Because I cherrish this time alone so much it has made me have insomnia sometimes.  I really do miss sleep but there are times that I seriously miss my time alone!  If there is any advice that any moms or dads can give me I definitly welcome it!  Finding a baby sitter on the weekend is almost imposible because not many people can handle all 4 of my kids at one time....Well....time for me to get to bed.....or at least try to!!!  I will put the rest of my blogs up about each of my monkey later...